i hope Steven Strait will play the older Jacob Black ! He does resembles Taylor Lautner in some way and they are both HOThottieHOThot ! although , Michael Copon would be great too .

Taylor Lautner ,


Steven Strait and Michael Copon.

aww twilight saga's making a very hard time on me .i simply cant choose .of course , in twilight i would choose edward .although , in new moon i would choose jacob and in eclipse - yes , despite edward's sincerity and everything he's sorry for what he's done to bella in new moon , its just not enough for me to forgive him as a former team edward .i am in team jacob black because of the pain .i'm currently dealing with the pain that bella has dealt with in new moon and i needed someone like jacob .i needed the warmth , the smile , the enthusiastic character of jacob black .if only i had someone like that :'( and like bella , its true , the pain keep coming back when u're alone .i would love to have jacob black here with me .although i know i would've picked edward too if i were bella , just as a twilighter , i no longer loved edward's character .if i were bella , of course i would pick edward .but i'm not bella , i'm not in her place and i'm the same pain she had .i've said in my last post before , my condition is more like jacob's condition plus bella's pain in new moon .i'm in team jacob black not because of whatever reasons any of you might think badly .i'm in his team because of the pain .i am in jacob's shoes , and i can say that i'm 50/50 on the understanding part .yep , i'm jacob , he is bella and his girl is edward .although i understand why bella choose edward over jacob , i just cant admit to myself that i understand why he chose her over me .i cant deal with that like jacob can .jacob's a strong character .i'm supposed to be jacob - yes but , i just cant . i do not have the same strength . when he left me , it felt like - well , i dont have to describe it .if you're a twilighter , you'll understand better .but still with this pain in me , i'm living life normally though differently .i only have strength to hide the pain from my family's eyes , and my friend's eyes .its hard enough for me to feel it every time i was alone , i wouldnt want anybody around to see me in pain .i talk about the pain often , to let it out but i havent once let anybody actually see me in pain with their own eyes .some may have seen before , but this time its worse .the worst pain ever .bella's really lucky to have jacob , i wished i had someone like that .i know - i keep repeating words .my emotion is not right .i've been crying when my heart is happy and smiling when my heart is sad .i know - its weird .i noticed too .ah , stop , stop .writing all this is making me write everything and i should stop , i wont tell any further .nothing matters anymore .the main thing is he left me for her .i am jacob , he's bella and she's edward .nothing can ever change that and i cant even be bestfriends to him like jacob is to bella .i cant imprint his child either therefore i'm the most pathetic human ever !

ah twilight had been a big obsession to me in the past few months .before i say anything , i'd like to admit that i am SLOW when it comes to twilight saga novels .yes , i admit that .and i have just finished reading new moon .although i've always been on team Edward , sad to say i'm switching to team Jacob .his storyline is more like me , his love and loyalty to bella are more like my story .yeah , edward was always the most beautiful , perfect and romantic guy but he did left .before all twilighters went amok , i'd like to say that i do know what happens in eclipse and breaking dawn eventhough i had just finished the second book .i know , okay .its just that i'm feeling what bella felt when edward left . it really was bad for him to leave her like that :( and jacob , poor thing .gahhhhh this novels are controlling my emotions !!! and more to add , although jacob's storyline is more like mine , my condition is more like bella except for the part she's happy being with jacob and getting back edward .yeah , cut all those happyhappy stupid happy lovelove part , and there u got it , my storyline .

jacob's storyline + bella's sadness = ME ME ME :|
currently on team JACOB BLACK

what more can i say ? he is beyond beautiful , he is unimaginably romantic and he's a vampire :D team edward culen all the way , baby . he had impressed me a lot with his character in twilight and breaking dawn might as well does the same impact with midnight sun ;)

after the SPM results came out , i went out with my two good friends , ady and paly . they came all the way from taiping to ipoh just to go out with me . we had fun together , watched movie (although the movie was a stupid one) , we hang out till 6-7 i guess . i missed them , they were really fun that day , i was a bit down because of my results but hey , they cheered me up . but still , i'm a bit sad that another one of us couldnt join us since he's busy catching up with his friends cause he just got back from plkn . oh well , there are some other days we can hangout right syed :) OH i wish we could hangout some more !

  FAIQAH AND BASSIST
 

i dont know what else to crap about but i guess i'll just talk about my weekend in kuantan :) i was in kuantan last friday . stayed there for 3 days lol . i spent my saturday at the mall with my bestie faiqah and a few friends . went to uitm on that day and saw bassist there :) i was so happy to see him , its been quite a while since i met him the last time . i went out on sunday too but this time with my petbrother and spent the whole day with him and another friend . that night i slept at faiqah's house . i gotta say , i had a blast there . we talked , we laughed , we ate , we sang , we did almost everything together the whole night until i fell asleep . ahh , i never get the chance to do a few things with her although we did so much that night . the next day we went out to the mall , she went out with mr guitarist and i'm with my bassist ! gagaga . that day was the happiest day in my whole life , of course i wouldnt want to spoil it by telling everyone about that day , but to cut the story short , we went out till midnight and it was a friggin day to remember . i got home at midnight and went back to ipoh at dawn . yes , writing my weekend at kuantan might seem so little to tell , but its a huge memory kept on my mind . hell yeah i'm happy again . thanks to faiqah and bassist , i am happy . i just love both of you and theres nothing else i would want now more than to spend more time with you guys :) oh and speaking of continuing my studies , i might be doing TESL so wish me luck !